Friday, February 12, 2010

all the scars that you carry






all the scars that you carry
from all the years of your life
are tender again
soft, painful lines across your body that you offer your lover
and, yes, i guess you can feel the soothing
warmth of his touch
that seems to steal your loneliness
and desperation away


you stagger into romance
with an undying hope
that every new champion will be your last
that this incarnation will be the final hero of honesty
the man who steps from the sorrow
of his own desperate life
and brings you salvation
in an unselfish commitment
to all that is you


i offer no excuses
for being incomplete
for failing to listen to your every wish and warning
i simply could not offer any more than i did
and so i accept my place in your history
the target of your disappointment
an ominous shadow that encumbers your life
confirming, i suppose, what you feared most
that love changes and passes
and does not conquer time
that despite all your dreaming
or hopeful disregard
i let you down unconditionally and sent you to another


i wish i could be closer to you
hold you in my arms
and protect you from every hurricane of emotion
but you have taken other shelter
where you wait and pray that this uncertain storm of passion
will somehow be transformed into a rainbow of promise
that you have painted for all the world to see
and now no matter what i say
no matter what i do
this new scar remains
and i am only sad not for what is lost
but for the simple fact that
you may only remember the experience of our love
and never have guessed its meaning


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3 comments:

  1. Nice dispatch and this fill someone in on helped me alot in my college assignement. Thank you on your information.

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  2. Sometimes you don't know what you have gained from loving someone. The meaning and the lesson of this love escapes you. But the only thing you know is that the need for anyone else is what you have lost for ever, irrevocably...

    A very beautiful poem, Kennedy James...

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  3. Dive in already:
    you know you’ve been standing
    too long
    in the rising naked sun,
    whose hard heat has
    swindled your ferry toll and
    pocketed the change.
    Yet, still you stand on the cushioned shore
    with your buried burnt feet
    stuck within a damp sand salve
    and your arms raised as if in farewell
    (but really to shade your squinted eyes
    that strain to see the glint of tin
    that once winked on the watery western horizon).

    Dive in already,
    and soothe the phantom ache
    of the red cross
    that glares from your plush chest
    amidst the shrapnel scars of your mother’s
    and each past lover’s
    fleeting smiles.

    Dive in already,
    and flip quickly onto your back;
    become your own raft
    and scrawl not across but through the surface
    of a flippant sea
    before you become an old man
    who laments the loss of an
    alleged big fish almost caught.

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